"Alfred: Took quite a fall, didn't we, master Bruce?
Thomas Wayne: Yes, and why do we fall Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up" - Andrew Tan, twitter ;)

Well, looking at the bright side of things, I'm learning how to pick myself up after a great fall, one of the many in years to come.

So, I just wanna apologise for ignoring all the "stay strong" messages.. because honestly... i can't think of any response to that.. was i supposed to say thanks for that moment of sincerity? because i bet i would've been forgotten right after they clicked the "send button" was i supposed to promise them that i'll not crumble under all this, that i'll still remain committed, enthusiastic and driven? because I'm not sure how the rest of my term in council will look like, i haven't even tested the dynamics of our teamwork.. so how am i supposed to promise anything? or was i supposed to reassure them that i'm fine? because i cant bring myself to lie. Are they looking for a certain response? or were they merely trying to console me? why? who are these people who consoled me? friends? or acquaintances? were they sincere? or were they just saying it for the sake of trying to smoothen things out between us so that we can work better in future?

Anyway, all the "stay strong" messages from yesterday till this afternoon got me thinking... what if i was never strong? what if I'm weak, lonely and empty inside and this is just a facade that I'm putting up? will "carry on this strong facade" work better than "stay strong" for me? Perhaps. I often doubt myself after each series of water work. Only time will tell if this is all merely an act...

So, just to sum up. my purpose in joining council was to serve the school. At least, i still have that opportunity to do so. The bottom line has always been the students. So, they'll be my motivation, my drive.